Wednesday, April 20, 2011

foggy moments

Sometimes I wonder what Heavenly Father REALLY has in store for me.  I've said many times that my life didn't turn out the way I planned.  And in moments when I'm sad or confused about my life's current status I wonder if Heavenly Father really meant for these things to happen or did I make a mistake along the way and take a wrong turn.  I'm sure He knows what He is doing and in the end I will look back and say "Oh!  So that's why!" but it's just hard to be in the moment I guess.  I've always tried to be the best person I can....thinking that if I obey and do everything to the best of my ability I would OF COURSE get the blessings that I so desire.  And I'm sure that I will get those blessings eventually - just since they are not in sight at the moment it's hard to handle at times.  =)  I know I am not alone in that feeling...I've heard it expressed from so many others. 

So at the moment I guess I'm in a bit of a fog...trying to see the end.  And like Lehi's dream I am just going to clench onto that rod that I know will lead me to my desired end and ignore the fact that I can't see. 

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